Friday, September 30, 2011
Nothing much to update today but I felt like posting so here I am! I am still awaiting insurance approval. The insurance specialist from the dr in NC spoke with the representative for my group of insurance and she wants them to fax reports of studies that show how well the stimulator works and they will think about changing the policy supposedly. I am trying to be optimistic but I just don't see that happening because 1 patient needs it. I wanted them to just go ahead and submit a request for authorization but the insurance person basically refused stating it would immediately be turned down. So what? If there is nothing requested I cannot appeal a decision!!! That is how I have heard most people that fought insurance got their surgery approved. I am on a waiting list for a clinical trial but that isn't supposed to begin until next year. I just feel as if I am at a standstill yet the pain has been progressively getting worse. I scheduled an appointment with a pain management group and it was for this morning but they called stating that they would have to reschedule because the PA I was supposed to see is out sick today. So now I have another week to wait on that. Ugh! I just can't seem to get any help at all. Every day I go on about life and pretend to be normal when I have to go out into public but in reality feel like cowering in a dark quiet place 24/7, or else screaming! I am hoping pain management will at least help me keep my sanity while I wait on possible surgery. Nearly every night I curl up with my ice pack and tell my husband that I can't do this anymore, but in the morning I get up and start over again anyway. I am determined to get better but honestly getting more and more tired from dealing with the 24/7 pain. Hopefully relief isn't too far away. I left my full time job as I couldn't handle working for those jerks anymore. I already had some work that I did on my own anyway, just part time though. It was nice at first until bills started rolling in! I am starting a new job though where I can choose my own hours, and I definitely feel like this has been the best choice I have made in a very long time.